running, our life

2008-02-11T20:24:00.000+08:00

looking back
i wasnt ready at all

waiting 2 years, was simply to catch up...

lets get ready now...
no more compromising.

what i trash i am, sigh.

2008-01-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

the season to cry.

那首歌english lyrics by Reuben Wong

2008-01-14T01:23:00.000+08:00

an excellent song i heard translated into english lyrics
heres the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhDU9y9ks-0

There is a song, it sang to me
Telling me you're leaving me...
Could not believe my eyes,
As i fall down to cry,
It sounded painfully so beautiful...

The things you do and say to me...
feels like this love was never meant to be...
I pray that you will stay,
yet you just turn away,
how can i face the pain you bring into my world alone..

With every dream i see you sleeping by my side...
Yet when i wake its you i miss at night.
you say you stand by me,
now you are leaving me...
you say you feel the hurt I feel,
but is that ever really true....

this love is drowning me...
with every hope i breathe...
this dreams that may come true...
can only happen with you...

2008

2008-01-04T10:47:00.000+08:00

3day into 2008 alr.
well, 2007 was really quite a year for me.
in fact, since so many years of my life,
i think its been a one since i've had such an eventful one.

well new year resolutions :>
going to stop swearing by end of 2008!
Keep my accoutable my friends!
Especially my gaming ones :X

4mths left b4 NS
Going to commit it to AJCG,
i wrote in my newyear resolution
1 convert a mth.
then i realised everyone put only like what 3 sheeps or 4 sheeps by end of the year
then smth struck me that, that means they only have 1 convert every 3/4 mths
which means,
IM CRAZY.
but well nothing is to great for God to handle.
i believe i can achieve at least half of it.

it hasn't been easy at all since after As
where most people feel that the shackles of studying is relieved for now...
well,
everyone have their own problems
and apparently mine, isn't really small.

how to decide between
letting go...
or
hanging on...

anxiousness...
or
jealousness...

selflessness...
or
selfishness...

love...
or
hate...

its been a real struggle for me.
but i overcomed at least 90% of it now
thanks to church camp.
the rest of the 10%,
i guess god wants me to tugggg through it
so that i will grow up...
even more.

its kinda weird if after 1 year u feel that you're still the same old you.
i believe in improving every year.
many who know me 6years ago,
probably don't know me now.
the things im capable of.
the things im doing now.

so challenge every single one of you to grow up
every year :>
so well at least you can look back
and say
hey in 2007,
i stopped doing this this
and started doing this this
and now im like this this

my sister said that
affinity is a beautiful thing
well but she also said that
the only thing i lacked was timing
time was not with me...yet
but i shall continue
to wait...

2007-12-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

Affinity.

growingup.

2007-12-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

well, some people say people can't change overnight,
its true
but no one said that no one cannot change after 4days.

4days that changed my life.
4days that gave me my answer.
4days that re-directed my life.

for those who are still guessing wad is this 4 days
its the 4days i spent at church camp.

well, many said i sacrifice many things for that 4days,
gaming
time spent with frens
and 1 thing that people keep bugging me abt,
that is going for prom night.

well, it is in fact probably the last prom night i can ever have.
but after the first day at the church camp,
i decided not to go.
because i know, every other day in the camp will make a difference in my life.
and it did.

for those people i've been speaking to and trying to invite you after the camp,
maybe you are reading this.
but i pray,
1 day u all will realise that there are more things then just studying,friends,family,relationships
yes they are all beautiful things.
but brother and sisters,
if you know there is something more beautiful out there,
wouldn't you pursue it.
some of my frens said i got brainwashed.
im sure im not.
thats because i been through all of the above mentioned,
not all of the aspects in each category but definitely some aspects in those once.
i've experienced the pain,joy,happiness,excitement,saddness,anxiety....
the waiting.
lol.
even as im still waiting,
but its different now
it used to be like this
god,friends,family,relationship,cca,sports,piano,gaming all part of my life.
now
its

GOD

THEN

the rest.

he shall be the core of my life from now on.

for those who do not know him yet,

and i know you.

lol

i pray that if it isn't me who bring you to come to know him,

someone will.

and hope it isn't too late.

if life is just abt those that i mentioned about,

pursuing studies, careers, helping out the needy, having a family, having friends

then i tell you, you will never be totally filled

1 day, when u realised you have all these, you will still realise

why am i still feeling so empty.

for we are human

we will never be satisfied

we will always want greater things,

more money,

better looking girlfriends/boyfriends

more $$ cars

more time

those things i mentioned are not bad things to pursue

but if they takeover your life,

then u realised

u will never be filled

never be satisfied

will always feel empty 1 day or another.

and friends

only god

can really fill us.

amen.

2007-12-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

why let me know what you do everyday...

when im not doing them with you...

why did i say things so that you think twice,

i could have gone along,

so that i have a chance to meet you.

but its wrong.

but its so painful...

why did i say things so that you will say no.

do i care if its gratitude or not?

no.

as long as i spend time with you,

im satisfied.

but i don't wanna be selfish.

i don't...

but seems like

it will be my saddest birthday ever,

all the things i planned and want to do,

will never happen..

never happen...

and i really screwed this up.

because its not happening,

i got fired

cant believed my boss is so -.- unreasonable.

my career will come to a standstill for now.

and i wonder when will i have the strength,

to play those songs again...

without having tears on my piano...

my birthday wish this year...

please be happy.

2007-11-28T01:05:00.001+08:00

I can't believe this is happening
5days
2overnights at the studio
3days to learn to play a guitar
only 5days...
rushing through all 10 pieces.
and guess what,
none
zero
NONE
WERE HEARD.
it didn't matter that you're the first to be able to listen to it
it didn't matter when you knew I told you I sang and played 1ofyour fav instrument
it seems
i just didn't matter at all.
im really hurt this time.
but i will hold on.
i believe you're better
we're not perfect
for the pain don't seem to bother, but the bother seem to pain
cheer up girl
we will try to do that together...

2007-11-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

somehow i knew it,

my efforts unappreciated,

but i will still hold on...

somehow i envy u,

u have the luxury to be angry with someone

for me

i just can't be angry with that someone

how painful that is.

2007-11-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

walking in orchard road carrying a heavy carrefour plastic bag for my parents was quite a sight
never did the colour blue mean so much to me

the blue lights and the blue star hanging from corner to corner on the road,
as i walked,
i thought if we were walking down this pathway tgt, we will be like.. thats so nice.
i dunno if its ironic or what,

BUT WHY BLUE THEME THIS YEAR FOR ORCHARD ROAD CHRISTMAS -.- IT WAS RED ALL THE WHILE.

just like when i was walking home after the bus trip
the blue sky was so beautiful,
so wanted to take a picture of it to show you...

but i can't
cos the pain don't seem to bother, but the bother seem to pain.
i so want to share my world with you,
i so want to spend my time with you,
the world seemed so meaningless without sharing my daily joys with you,

even the blogger topbar is blue
the windows taskbar is blue
gosh im going crazy.

im so sure its you,
im hanging on to a thin thin thread,
i was so forgotten
but i dun believe i was, i just don't
am i just naive?
my fren said people who believed in true love are fools
i told him,
then i rather be a fool.

i was so worried
but does it matter.
for i am i and she is she.
im getting ignored,
being avoided,
but with the least hurting means.
but whats worse?
knowing you're a goner
or knowing you're not a goner,
but these goes the way that u are worst than one

if only i am one of the heroes movie guy who can read people's mind
then i can know what you are really thinking.
why call me when you can call him
why give me a thin thin little hope for me to hang on
but for now as i see it
you have no time for me.

a gift given
appreciated?
i do not know.
i put my heart and soul in it for comments
till now,
i got none, none at all

when i was at work,
it was always you, you and you.
my breaks, my bus rides, even when i was on the piano.
it was still you.

why share with me an invisible wing,
when your real wing is with somebody else

all the dreams shared
all the things shared
all the empty promises
all the false hopes,
i really don't know anymore

this was the drama i asked for?
mel told me srsly i can write a script and send it to a producer they will surely use it.
ha ha.
not funnie -.-

why i look back,
it all seemed so beautiful
thats my only motivation
thats my thin thread
im holding on...
im waiting...

i'll still be waiting, no matter how painful it hurts me...

2007-11-26T01:54:00.001+08:00

i hope nth happened to you
i hope you're fine
i don't dare to ask,
but i waited tonight,

like i still be doing for a long long while...

2007-11-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

i asked.

it wasn't yes

it wasn't no

it is...

DUNNO!

NOW i also dunno -.-

2007-11-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

"When You're Gone"

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss youI've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were, yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

no matter how happening my life is

i need to share it with someone

and somehow

somewhy

some reason

its you

2007-11-18T03:29:00.001+08:00

I feel the wind blow this place
There I see the stars beyond this window pane
Shining so bright,
Here in this night,
Here I feel the sense of love…
Deep in my heart I cry for you,
Every tear that falls feels like a wound.
The stars in the skies,
Gently shines,
Taking away my pain…
I hear voice gently saying
“Don’t be afraid.”
I feel a warmth come over me,
as I sleep in their embrace,
And even though I do not have that strength to go on…
Even though I try to hold on,
This love will never ever be meant for me.
But I keep on smiling
Even though my dreams won’t come true,
I remember every moment with you…
Like the stars that shine forever
I will treasure my love for you…

i hoped you managed to sleep that night...

2007-11-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

I'd take another chance,
take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah
I loved you with the a fire red-

Now it's turning blue,
and you say...I'm sorry like an angel
heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

just now long more can i stay by your side,
i don't know how long more i can last,
the hearts leaking day by day
one day it will run dry.......

2007-11-14T18:49:00.001+08:00

smile please

cos i do when you do

if there's anything i can do for you,

let me know

i wanna do so so so so so much for you

but i can't.

2007-11-14T11:15:00.000+08:00

i wish i could do everything for you

but im not given that status,

but at least im doing things.

the unplayed melody,

played.

is that all i can do for you.

i really wanna do more...

2007-11-13T19:02:00.001+08:00

my role?

if its to listen

i will listen,

even if i stay a listener forever

at least ur sharing your world with me

im satisfied

cheer up girl.

first time-

2007-11-13T12:36:00.000+08:00

A levels is coming to an end...
3 more papers
then the wait really starts

maybe you do not need this emotional support anymore after As,
but i'll still be around
but less significant this time,
i can't do much for you,
but only be there
becos
i don't have the status to do so..

looks like my most of my first times are already experienced due to you

first time.....

while walking home i look upon the MRT tracks on my right,

hoping to catch a glimpse of you which i never will

when i wake up,

i have something to look forward to,

im worried even before i sleep,

im worried for someone more than myself,

i think of you when anything happens,

i could endlessly share my thoughts,

i did crazy things,

i can feel what it means,

i cried after 3 years of not doing so

i am really really myself

i smile to myself and people think im crazy

i wrote a song which really meant something to me

i realised whats the difference between good and great

happy and estatic

sad and anguish

laughter and rofl

anixety and worry

white and pure

blue and heaven

wings and angel

rememberance and memories

and much much more i want to type down...

even if it is the first time,

im waiting,

so so long

i wonder when it will end.

maybe it will never end.

maybe i can only be a brother,

but i don't want to

i rather be a friend then.

just to let you know,

i'll always be there

guardian angel

2007-10-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

i really cannot see
which is more important
the it, or you.
sigh.

3weeks more.
BRING IT ON.
LETS GO THROUGH THIS TOGETHER GUYS!
woo.

good things have to wait, best things must wait.

2007-10-23T00:23:00.001+08:00

I'LL BE WAITING.

good things have to wait.

2007-10-22T20:50:00.000+08:00

its been really long while since i ever cried
but i did
thrice today maybe more later...
once on the bus home
i couldn't control the tears.
not even if i closed my eyes.
once when i finished running
attempting to clear my mind
it failed obviously.
it started to rain,
those mingled with my tears.
i stood there, thinking but definitely lost
once when i was in my room
i read the message.
i tried to reply.
hands shaking, i give u 2 my blessings
"sent"
this time, i cried aloud.
i stopped typing and went to play piano...

and i thought
thrice was enough
tears flooded my piano keys too.
Playing the happy song just didn't make sense anymore.
it was a "happy" song but it sounded so sad.
my mum asked me,
whose song is this
how come so nice but yet so sad?
i told her, i composed this.

but the tears,
were of joy and sadness
for they reminded of the time spent together
to many or to you
it may be simple hours
silent hours
maybe some laughter
maybe some joy
but to me
it is......
everything

"good things have to wait"

I'll be waiting.

many said i was a fool to believe in true love,
i rather be a fool.

我知道你一定比我难受
你一定在默默的哭着。
我从那天知道你哭过后，
就以经知道了。
你一定要幸福。
保持你那甜美的笑容。
一定要。

就算牵的不是我的手
我真的不难过。

2007-10-20T18:11:00.000+08:00

如果我的出现只是让你哭泣
那我宁愿消失。
请不要失去你的笑容。

2007-10-20T02:38:00.001+08:00

i'll be listening.
with my heart (:

lead the way.

2007-10-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

如果这一切都是谎言
请你把我从梦里叫醒
他们都说，
短痛不如长悲。
但如果这一切都是真的
那你什么都不用说。
我能听得到。
用心，
一定能听得到。

2007-10-17T20:17:00.001+08:00

i just realised i typed the name wrongly
ITS

忆翼

就算牵的不是我的手
我真的不难过。

5wks

2007-10-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

after 1 night
i really thought it over.

wads 5wks. when i alr waited 2mths

anyway
i just composed a superdupernice song
im never so proud of my own composition EVER.

意翼

thats the name of the song.

i'll be waiting.

MOVING ON.

2007-10-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

well.
its be
a
lets see.
from 12am to 10.40pm
thats 22hours
22hours of undescribeable ________.
did i spell it correctly? lol
DUNCARE!

im in a totally what they call it. NOWHERE
nothing. NOTHING can define what i feel now
NOTHING.

just can't believe, dictionary got over dunno how many thousand words
and none of them can actually fit.
not even a PHRASE

anyway today is the last episode for 2 shows
SILENCE aka Shen Qin Mi Ma
and the ch8 9pm show

both had sad endings.
omg so sad. hahahahahahaha

anyways.
mel said that what happened recently really damm drama.
omg.
maybe i deserved it. LOL
cos i was hoping it to be so
but i didn't know it will be so hard, so painful.
I had a friend who's a girl
i always wondered why even though the guy broke up with him
she still remain faithful
she told me that i will never understand
i think im starting to understand now.

the feeling of
not wanting to hurt someone
but ur hurt by that same person
the feeling of
wanting to care,
but caring too much will mean hurt
the feeling of
showing that u get hurt
will only hurt someone
the feeling of
wanting to do so much,
but the thing to do is nothing
the feeling of
knowing this is so important
but because its so important,
you cannot do anything about it
the feeling of
knowing he/she cares,
but he/she got her own circumstances to be bothered with
the feeling of
not wanting it to affect her
and rather suffering the pain by yourself
the feeling of
helplessness,disappointment....

the list goes on
but the fact the these feelings exist
its becos of 1 feeling

becos i care.
thats enough for me to experience and endure these feelings
for their existence only show how important this is to me.

i learnt a super cool analogy today
Each of us is an Angel with ONE wing.
The only way we can fly is to hold each other.
So if one has a trouble flying
just find the one who is willingly to share with you

i found mine.

trying to move on

2007-10-15T02:27:00.000+08:00

wad a long time from the last time i actually posted on m y blog
and guess what
its abt the same thing from my last post,
issit fate for history has came back to haunt me.

well, things were going well till today
but i must say
i at least still have a good fren ^_^

its hard to find one person whom i know for only a week
and
i can tell her almost everything i know abt myself
i was bleeding when i realised it was over for now.
how finally know what those drama serials meant
"wo de xin zai ti xue"
i finally felt it.
it totally sucks
but still, it shows that this time im really serious, i really care, and it really meants alot to me
i was searching for this kind of feeling for a long long time
now that i found it, and lost it,
but i still believe in it

i believe that our meeting is not a coincidence
i believe all that happened b4 was not imposed, but pure fate
for the days we were supposed to met we didn't
but the days when we had to met, we did
the days when i thought u weren't there, u were there
the days when i thought i lost you, and i really did

wad an irony when i say im always right abt these kind of things
for right dun always mean good or good things to come
i dun wanna intrude
but i dunno if i can help it
its so hard. to stay untarnished in this bleeding grds
i can only for now, try to understand you more
and do what i can do for you....
as a friend.

maybe we weren't meant to be,
but its so hard not to believe we ain't
so much in common we share
but time was unfair.
i was once again,
a step behind...

for
a girl will always be running after a boy
only coming before from buying the boy's favourite sweet from the local sweet shop
but she didn't realise that there's a hole in her pocket
and that her sweets are dropping out 1 by 1
when all seemed was lost
another boy, follows behind
picking them up 1 by 1
and handling them to the girl...
doing the thing he can only do now
that is to stand by her.

right now, im the boy behind.
i still do.
still do believe in true love
god bless all
and all those who are taking the A levels in the cming 2 wks
3wks of exams
and it will be over.
but unlikely over for me it seems.

2007-08-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

for once
i feel helpless
only can pray about it
but its not smth u are proud to pray of
sigh.

motivations are ard
but i dunno how to garner them
SHOULD I EVEN TRY
in this perilous moments
88 days before A levels
Exactly 1 month before prelims
maybe i shldn't even try
but
if i don't i might lose a chance of a life-time
its a long long long time since i found this spark again
sigh.

Amazing GRACE

2007-07-30T17:38:00.000+08:00

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see'
Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures
My chains are goneI've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
My chains are goneI've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

excellent song people
for those who are wondering what is grace
grace is receiving something you don't deserve (:

2007-07-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

UPDATES!

:(
when i blog its usually because im like STUCK UP! and CAN'T BREATHE! omg
HELP!

7.5 for maths is the first
ZOMG
where am i going to start
BUT I MUST IF NOT ITS G_G

physics
EMI, DC etc. anything after that im quite G_G too.

ECONS
even though its a H1
but it seems that wits alone cannot score this subject and need to study

with all these 3 PLUS geography to keep up with
its definitely and urdous TASK
omg

NEED MOTIVATION

pray for me ppl lol
i will pray for myself
like pastor jeff said this fav prayer
HELP ME!

-brokenwings-

2007-05-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

i had faith
i still have
but its thinning
i need someone to re-faith me LOL?!

well.
i believed i could be well by monday
but monday
i was not 100%
most 60%
but i ran 300ms and did a few strides
i promised nt to push
i didn't
but my leg. got worst? i dunnoe
but definitely not better
i can walk
i can stride
but i cannot jump
my quads are fine
but my wadever joining my hips and quads is not fine
and when they are fine
my left side of quads hurt
that was monday
SHUCKS!
coach says i will be back by friday
but doubts are clouding my mind
however
i still believe

for
broken wings amended. will soar for you (:
FAITH!

-READ(:-

2007-05-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

An Argument that is so wonderfully answered....that is truly "Genius".Read On.
An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and.....
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then?
Hmm?(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelled your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light.... But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelled it?.....No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it, sir.. The link between man & god is FAITH.
That is all that keeps things moving & alive....
That young man was ALBERT EINSTEIN.......

a super great article i read

-ajidolexperience-

2007-04-28T00:30:00.000+08:00

well.
aj idol is over
to be frank it was filled with some regrets

we sang it so well
at staircases
in classrooms
in the tech run

we got the moves right this time
but our nerves got us maybe?
i dunno
but all the harmonising parts went all bonkers

worst part was
when the judges commented that maybe i shld have sang solo.
so LAME.
seriously
i want to thank
and dedicate this post to jason and hock kiat
they really made it possible for me to be in ajidol
could never had done it without them
HOCK KIAT NICE HAIRSTYLE TODAY ((:

T3 will never disband
we know we have it
its just that we didn;t show it

AND THANK YOU ALL SUPPORTERS ((:
sorry wasted u guys sms.
know u ppl smsed alot
nxt time treat u all 1 day. lol ((:

GODBLESS ALLL

-zomgreckless-

2007-04-26T21:14:00.000+08:00

i hope i was not too reckless
in trying to get someone to go service smthn stupid to do
maybe i shld have gotten a girl to get a girl to go service.
sigh.

well.
had to console alot of people
i feel so drained myself
who will console me :(

injured left quads.
cannot train.
monday sch track and field meet
i doubt i can run well.
feel that i really really really let my coach down,
seriously
mr tan
is one of the most respected man i have known so far
nxt week
I MUST BE BACK!

met up with my Caregroup
COME ON BRUDDERS.
we must have our dreams ((:
amen.
o ya i must thank shawn for teaching me how to be a professional lamer!
EXCELLENT LAME JOKES FROM HIM. LOL!

issit so hard to show concern from someone.
i really dunnoe.
once again i let myself get into a stpid situation
O YA.
stupid physics lecturer
wad 1s2p crap
U 2PS!
hahahaha julia will know what i am talking abt ((:
2ps!

your love that never ends
restores me again.
RESTORE ME!

in your strength
will i breakthrough lord!
I WANT A BREAKTHROUGH!

touch me now.
let your love fall down on me!
i know your love dispels all my fears!
DISPEL MY FEARS!

my pastor once said
look out and you feel stressed
look inside and you feel depressed
look up and you feel hope ((:

-complete-

2007-04-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

thx JO. i love this song <3

Complete - Parachute Band

Here I am, Oh God

I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.

I offer up my life.

I look to You, Lord

Your love that never ends

Restores me again.

So I lift my eyes to you, Lord

In Your strength will I break through, Lord

Touch me now,

let your love fall down on me

And I will be complete in You.

Here I am, Oh God

I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.

I offer up my life.

I look to You, Lord.

Your love that never ends

Restores me again.

So I lift my eyes to you Lord

And by faith, I will walk on, Lord

Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day,

And I will be complete in..

I look to You, Lord

Your love that never ends

Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord

In your strength will I break through Lord

Touch me now,

let your love fall down on me

I know your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord

And I pray I will hold on, Lord

Then I'll see beyond my calvary one dayA

nd I will be complete in

I will be complete in

I will be complete in You .

BEAUTIFUL SONG. LISTEN TO IT WHEN UR DOWN ((:

-letsmoveonppl-

2007-04-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

GUYS.
no matter the result
ITS OVER.. OOOVVEEERR!
national x ctry for track this year.
was really quite and EXPERIENCE for me
ironically
i didn't even run. LOL

well.
we had expectations for the team
the DREAM. seemed like reality.
i really thought. we will make it this time
but somehow
being our vision as stepping stones
maybe we are not supposed to go so far yet ((:

okie to start of jokingly
eugene see's name was WRONG HAHA.
mrs toh apparently got eugene NG instead
and we were saying if eugene SEE get top 20 or top 10
eugene NG will get the credit instead.
well.
eugene see ran well. according to rama
he was 7th throughout the race
however
he had heat exhaustion at the last 300ms
and never finished the run.
hiccup no.2
mugilan also got dizzy and did not finish
hiccup no.3
apparently andrew didn't do even his best training timing
due to the f ast pace at the start.
BUT
i want to thank all the above 3
for their undying effort for running
they really showed wad it meant to run ur heart out.
they never gave up
and
the TEAM never gave up on you
SO DUN GIVE UP.
also
nicholas
why the heck are u so sad.
YOU RAN WELL TODAY.
CONTINUE THIS NXT YEAR. COME ON
rama.
zomg. nice one man
once again u proved that ur the RACE runner
nice 16.48mins run
really
thank YOU.
you made "stepping stones" possible.
jiazheng
thx for not letting me down
HAHA.
nice 17mins.

GIRLS NICE RUN TODAY TOO.
VICTORIA.
did very well. with 16mins
and every girl was under 18mins today
well done!!!
qiurongivyarianakingyinwanling
NICE ONE okie!

thx aj track team for coming down to support
i really see a TEAM now.
lets rock on people.

well guys.
time to move on
we still got nationals.
lets make sure
this time
even hiccups cannot stop us
LEARN FROM THIS PEOPLE.
we are capable of so much more
AND WE KNOW IT
GO TRACK
I REALLY LOVE THE TEAM NOW ((:

givenwingsiwillSOAR

2007-04-12T19:38:00.000+08:00

400ms this saturday 1030am
i must prove to him the given wings!
ON THIS ARENA i have trained for (:
<54s is my target.
hope i can meet or at least achieve near it LOL

freedom writers is a GREAT movie
make sure u watch it guys
yihan thx for the book (:

finally managed to organise my NOTES onto a brand new ERECTED white table my mum made for me
now i got place to study in my messy messy house
yay.
its time to move on
once again (:

-runningandrunning-

2007-04-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

well.
national x ctry coming
so far averaging 18.45min for my 4.5km run
got to reach below 18.30min by nxt training
and try below 18 by national x ctry
GOGOGO GUYS

for sch track and frield meet 200ms
i got 24.0s
broke my personal best ^_^
was quite happy
but not being cocky or anything
i feel that i can go even FASTER
woo
thats a great feeling to have
thank god for allowing my injuries to come to past!
now i can train!
yay!

keepgoing guys
400m and 200m saturday and sunday
today's good friday ><
rest well people
and wish u best of luck

-themarchto52continues(:-

2007-03-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

well.
sph relays was not exactly very well done
4x200m we got last :(
4x100m our third runner failed to pass to the 4th. got disqualified :((
it was quite demoralizing cos coach had some hopes on us
and unfortunately.
all his schs did well. except for AJ :((
JIAYOU PEOPLE

national x ctry coming up.18april
its like only 3wks left to train up
we also have national juniors :S
i'm running 200m and 400m
only left 1.52wks left b4 the heats.
dunno how much i can train with my recurring injury :(
but lets hope i qualify for finals this time
AT LEAST FOR 400M.
well while doing that
i must keep up with my x ctry training
sigh ran 18.47min for the recent run today
did not make the top6 NU!
lost in what to focus on now.
sigh

sch work is piling up
many undone and unpacked stuff
so many sheets of paper in my bag
TIME TO GET ORGANISED
(:

-dashing.k
it remains so (:

-breakingfree:)-

2007-03-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

ran 14.35s for 120m today
broke my personal best again (:
must keep doing it.
me try to aim for below 14s.
know that is crazy
but i must try :)

but now
i have to run
4x100m
4x200m
4x400m
during sph relays this saturday and sunday :((
200m and 400m is the on the same day :(

well.
mr tan says that 4x100m can hit top8
we will try
first time at baton passing
not easy.
UP!
haha. but the hand not high enough
UP!
i ran too fast :X cannot pass to me. G_G disqualified
only left wednesday to work on baton passing
MUST GET IT RIGHT THIS TIME.

i think i found a friend.
really.
this time i think i did.
-dashing.K

-amazingencounters-

2007-03-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

well. its been awhile since i update
but wad the heck. some ppl never update for 1mth loh
me like 1 wk only HAHA.

start with track first.
well.
rama wun be running with us for sph relay's for the 4x400 and 4x800
due to commitments with his family overseas :(((
his loss will be greatly FELT zomg.!
well.
did my 600ms in 1mins 40s
last year i ran like 1min55s?
improved
besides that good news
all the rest is bad LOL.
quad's still pain after 120m and 200m reps
have to worry abt not injuring it while running
not easy. cos u scared u injured then u wun run all out
so HOW TO TRAIN :(((
NUUU.
overslept for 1 training zomg.
after a sleepover at a friends hse which i only slept 2hrs 6am-8am
then i slept from 12pm to SUPPOSEDLY 4PM but my stupid alarm clock
DIDN'T WORK.
woke up at 530pm then look at the time. SHOCKED. STUNNED.
rush to sch RUNNING. managed to reach there in 15mins
but i was so drained
my timings for that training WERE SO CRAP.
coach damm disappointed in me man. sigh :((
sorry coach.
i will train harder!

well nxt.
somehow i seem to meet squash girls
first.
it was jolene
then
it was jaclyn
then
it was yuan shan
then
jolene's good friend joyce

then also met a tennis girl
yihan
all jolene's good friend
jolene so nice thats y she got so many friends (:(:(:(:(:
haha. A FRIEND LIKE ME. joking,

well i guess god brought them together
cos i know jolene because i asked her to go for service
then we both asked and persuaded jaclyn who brought along yuan shan
yihan was already in the church but backslided. so she's back too
woo.
we got now 4 more ppl in church ((:
haha. must be wondering where does joyce fit in right
ACTUALLY NO WHERE.
just that i met her on the way out while going dinner with jo and yihan
stupid yoshi.
NO RECEPTION.
wad the heck. lol.
it was damm amusing to see yihan and perhaps jo. raising their handphones in search
for that signal.
even worst was.
yihan suggested that if u rub ur handphone against ur hair
the static will allow reception to be available.
LOL.
i was so amused. XD

well.
march hols didn't feel like hols at all
not recharged at all
did not do much ALSO
omg i feel so guilty.
I PROMISE I WILL STUDY HARDER tHIS INSTANCE.
rah.
jiayou all!
and godbless :):):)

-thechasecontinues(:-

2007-03-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

woo.
managed to achieve 55.78s for my 400m run today.
my chase towards 52s continues.
maybe i can run even faster than 52s
but that will be through TOUGH TOUGH TRAINING.
LETS GO GUYS!
nicetry by jiazheng on the 1500m. he got second.
niceone ron qin on 1500m (1st)--> power of love ah HAHA.

track guys are going down 1by1
we lost
kent
min jun

come on guys. we need to get a hold of ourselves
train HARD yes.but body more IMPORTANT!!!
remember to do the stretching NO MATTER HOW LAZY U ARE!

time to catch up with schoolwork during the march hols
ITS GOING TO BE A MATHS WEEK FOR ME
maths maths maths AND MORE MATHS.
well.thats that only that my worst dream came true -.-
but maybe its a blessing in disguise (:
let it be god's plan for me

-dashing.k
LOL u left.
god's plan man
PRAISE THE LORD!

-nxthecticweek-

2007-03-02T23:42:00.000+08:00

its going to be 1 hell of a week nxt week
even though it supposed to be the last week of term 1

our j3 seniors received their a level results today
well AJ did considerably well besides the fact that like 7/10 ppl i ask
had A A B OR A B B but GP unfortunately C6 -.-
percentage pass of GP with min 2 A lvl pass dropped from 98 to 95 to 92% this year
then lantis was like OMG NXT YEAR WILL IT BE 90?
lets x our fingers AND HOPE IT WUN BE.

well nxt tuesday i have my 200m track and field to run
thursday i have 400m
for 400m
it seems like all the people running are from sports CCA
woo.
its going to be hell of a run.

not to mention by wednesday the 2nd intake of jc1s will come in
with orientation
with cca carnival
plus all the work we supposed to do
woo. WOO.
haven contacted my physics tuition teacher
sigh.
AH!
stress LOL.

well.its alr march
april is the nats for x ctry alr
its happening all so fast
O YA
i am going to start mugging maths
FROM
partial fractions ( laugh at me please but my maths is really that jialat )
during the march holidays its going to be a
MATHS RUSH!
I WILL LOVE MATHS!
I WILL DO MATHS
I WILL
MUGGGGGGGGGG MATHS!

-DASHING.K
MATHS FTW!
HA.

2007-03-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

really need to get a grip of myself
must start to study
start to control some of my emotions
ARGH.

had to cancel tuition cos i was too damm tired for it
and i know if i go i will be wasting the $$
MOREover
it is the payday today so its like the first lesson of a new mth
so dun wan to pay first loh
BUT
sms the stupid teacher
then he said wad cancel last min is considered taught
then i am wtf
have i even paid u yet
doens't matter to me
i just dun come the nxt time.
like WADEVER. "shawn tang" phrase
i told him like 5hrs b4 the tuition started
if i wanted really last min i could have told him at like 30mins b4?
but he said it was LAST MIN
yes I KNOW
not last min is at least a day in advance
but at least i gave 5 hrs right?
well if he have to consider it taught then forget it
i wun come alr.
i mean wtf.
had enough
i brought in like 3 new students for him? then he treat me like liddat?
not to mention last year when i missed 1 lesson he considered it TAUGHT.
simply becos there is no make up.
where's that rational
he got so many other students i can easily join them?
the most i go to 1 corner then i got anything ask him?
not like i am some idoit that is damm unthankful?
and the joke is today is the first lesson
his rationale is we pay on the first lesson
we haven even PAID HIM.
and he wan to say considered taught
so wad is that a warning?
anything loh. no loss for me.
i just say bye. and there goes bye
to all the 4 students i brought for him
aiya. WADEVER.

leg injury is recovering but i really scared that it comes back
600m timed trial tmr.
guess i wun be running it for fear of injuring myself again
see how it feels tmr i guess
"I PROMISE I WILL TRAIN HARDER" - kent
really.
thank god for my speedy recovery

-dashing.k
you are leaving soon
and i can do nothing abt it
but really nothing?
i do not think so
it will not end tonight.

-backtosquare1-

2007-02-26T20:45:00.000+08:00

well recovered like 90% my mum said 88% fafa! haha
injury almost gone well tmr got 4x100m class race
hope during that 100m i wun injure myself
better warm up properly and do some striding :)

training is looking well and good
but its alr approaching the the x-ctry nationals
18march we have all comers alr
zz

not to mention the sch's track and field competition
where i am running 200m and 400m + long jump for the sake of it lol
hopefully i can secure 2 golds
but for 400m it is uncertain as i have not run or sprinted 400m for a long long time
beforce and since injury :(
and the worst part. all the races will be held NXT WEEK -.-
like i have to get back my speed in 1 week WITHOUT injuring myself
sigh.

kent we need to get those sexy shorts soon.
HAHA.
this is lame
anyway we need to check if everyone can afford it
the top i tink is a MUST
but the bottom shorts maybe not compulsory for non team members :)

well tmr i got Care grp meeting (:(:(:(:
with my new care grp
hopefully i can share some of my testimony with them =]
god bless all of my friends
a few of track members down with sickness again :(
get well soon andrew clement kent wan lin rama
yup.

-you told me u wanted to be friends
i treasured this friendship
but did you?

dashing.k

2007-02-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

kent.
cannot run
me.
i can run
but not my best yet
i pray alr
for all the injuries of my runners to recover
wanling too
xuelin too
COME ON PPL
brace ourselves
we can hurdle over this TOGETHER
rama too!

i have my own hurdles to climb
real
tall
massive
confusing
hurdles
:(

-dashing.k

ANOTHER WEEK!!!!!

2007-02-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

doctor says i have to rest for another two weeks

i really really hope the pain goes away.

k.

-my wish-

2007-02-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

my brother wrote this song!
so nice
lyris so apply me to HAHA.

We first talked so unexpectedly,
your first few words were so warm,
i thought i met an Angel,
your presence brightens my each day.

I saw you smiling so happily,
and i wanted you be like that always,
even when i knew about your struggles,
my wish still remains the same.

I wish,
I wish,
that every sunrise for you
will be so bright,
and every little thing a delight to you

No matter how time flies,
or how the earth may change,
my wish still remains the same.

I wish,
I wish
that i could take your place,
to carry your burden as a friend,
Be strong , my dear friend
and i promise you,
my wish for you will never change.

such an excellent SONG. the tune even nicer la.
was telling mel this song can compare to all the NICE NICE english songs she sent me
was damm lame
on monday wanted to go watch movie with
fafa tata fufu vadey harulegend
end up we wanted to watch epic movie or norbit
BUT BOTH NC16
then for the first time in my LIFE
at the counter the guy asked us for our IDs.
then i tried to lie my way out. saying 1 of my friend (who is actually under16) never bring ID.
then he stare into my eyes.
i stare back. HAHA.
he trusted me. THEN HE ASK HIS FELLOW LADY counter girl abt it.
then vadey who is the under16boy accidentally showed his face
then she said. THAT BOY DUN LOOK 16 LEI.
then -.-
gg. the guy said i can sell u 5 tix but that boy sry cannot.
wth..
FIRST TIME.
karma loh. cos b4 that i was telling them. WUN CHECK DE.
then really kanna check. G_G
after that we ate at fish&co
tried some cocktail called lava guava.
tasted -.- but i still drank half of it.

well cny is kinda sad for me always
1) i dun keep my angbao money AT ALL. zero
2) abt my grandmother
its damm sad.
she had to spend cny in the hospital cos she got admitted in
1 DAY b4 cny cos of knee pain
i went to visit her then see her sleeping
then wake her up
she speak hainannese so i dun understand at all
felt helpless
then she ONLY RECOGNISE ME from all my 3 siblings loh.
wth.
THATS COS i visit her every fortnight when i was sec1-4
and she carried me for 4 mths when i was born
when my mum told me
i was damm touched
i faster grab her hand.
she smiled loh.
then we stayed on for like 30mins
and left while holding on to her for the last time.
PRAYED FOR HER WITH MY BROTHER.
god bless her please.
ease her pain!
after that we went to watch fOLLOW the law with my family
the show was okie
we ate dinner at like 9pm at fishandco suntec!
then after that my parents went CHUN DAO HE PAN till 11.45PM
while me and siblings chiled out at starbucks.
MY brother ordered MANGO TEA and mango+rashberry tea
TASTED SO AWFUL zomg.
like MISTAKE!
but we still finished it.

well cny hols over alr
time to recover from injury and start training HARD!
hope i recover soon really.
I PROMISE I WILL TRAIN HARDER.

well.
thats that

-mywish-
i am holding on. a voice tells me too
but should i really?
i really still do
REALLY.
now i really know how much it means to me.

-dashing.k

it ends tonight

2007-02-19T17:19:00.000+08:00

THE INJURY ENDS TONIGHT, it ends tonight, it ends tonight.

past few days were the worst, cant train and nothing to do at home, just all the stooopid homework . someone save me from it.

k.

2007-02-17T14:49:00.000+08:00

-issitreallyover?-

2007-02-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

hope injury gets well after cny PLEASE
i PROMISE i train EXTRA hard too. HAHA KENT

anyway
went for cny service yesterday(Friday) after sch cny celebrations
and to my amazement
during service.
the 2 ajc ppl i saw actually saw me too
and they invited me to join the NORTHEAST grp of the church
which
i was supposed to belong too.
was also invited to the steamboat gathering!
had hesitations to go
but i guessed god was guiding me and i agreed to go after all
2 ajc ppl are
zhi wei and kat and another P.S girl from aj i forgot her name :X:X:X
went to marina mrt where i was introduced to the Care grp GUYS.
met the singer for the church which i thought was a quite cool looking guy HAHA.
hes from SAJC my dream JC.
haha
we cliqued well
i found the Care grp very interesting too
they are super friendly
and kai wei this guy is crazy over taking photos usually flop photos of ppl
went to marina for steamboat
eat eat eat
then we went for bowling
which i BOWLED pathetically : (
i keep getting 7 then later 0.
but managed to increase from 7 to 9 gradually
so well. i was getting used to it but we only played 1 game
cos it was like 6 person on the left and right lanes.
after which
we went home and i reached home ard 11.45pm
great time
but i dunno whether shld i go for the 12.30 service or 3pm service now
AIYO
sad justin
i dunno which one to go now loh
according to kai wei he says
since i am from a jc i belong to the NORTHEAST grp.
and care grp sessions are also held closer to my home due to that
HMMM.
will think over it
will miss the likes of bustin,jarvin,melvin,mark,xiangyun,xuanting and the rest of my central care grp ppl!
great knowing u all

should i let you go
even though i know i still do
if you will be happy
then let go it will be
i just can't be your friend(david tao SONG haha)

if everything from me wasn't enough
i guess i will never try again
either i was too fast too furious
or i was too little too late
so when will i get it right
i am too tired to try again.
maybe i will just linger on
this small hope
one eight june
will i still feel the same then.
i really dunno.

-dashing.k

-recovery-

2007-02-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

how long will my leg take to heal i dunno
watching all the rest train really
i really miss running.
: (

how well can i still run after it heals :(
i really dunno

now the team runners are all getting injured
i can only pray for them
: )

kent.
lets get well tgt SOON. come on
RAMA TOO.

-dashing.k

THIS FEELING SUCKS

2007-02-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

FUCK LA

WHY MUST WE GET INJURED, ITS BULLSHIT LA

STOOOPID INJURY PLS GO AWAY, I PROMISE I WILL TRAIN HARDER!!!!!

k.

WHY WHY WHY

2007-02-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

why am i so damn tired everyday?????
WHY WHY WHY WHY

ITS TIME FOR A BREAK, GOOD TO HAVE HOLIDAYS AROUND THE CORNER.

im so freaking tired.

k.leong/seet SEET SEET SEET

-ARGH!-

2007-02-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

sigh.
today did my 200m
25.56s.
sad.
cos i am injured!
nuu.
cannot train = cannot improve
but wanting to train > cannot train.
hence injury gets worst NUUU!
y that stupid jc1 pangseh me
then never come for the east coast road race.
make my injury worst
WHY!

so much i can do without this stupid INJURY AHHH.
when i see the other track guys run 1km within 3.18-3.30min
i feel so jealous
i WANNA run
but i can't
rama too.
he said this
"i got the least mileage in the WHOLE TE AM"
but well he still owns us so.
o well. haha.
i am out till after chinese new year i guess
will miss out on morning PE
i so wanna get well soon
someone MOTIVATE ME PLEASE
i dunno if i can last through this
AHHH!
maybe u can.

how to make you see
how to let you know
how to say
how to say
how i love you so.

how to i make you believe
here's a place to start
tu amor!

"means the world to me"

-dashing.k

-gotrackteam!-

2007-02-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

the team is really coming UP ONCE AGAIN
woot our timings for x-ctry is like so close man
looks like everyone is putting in the EFFORT
and its paying off!!

but for me and rama
no effort
so no paying off
we can only maintain

ran the SAA east coast road race with a injured quad
still managed a 12.01
decent
but i had to deal with like stomach ache
and
injured leg while running
almost died!
thank god. u were there accompanying me throughout the whole race man.
pushing me on. thank you!

thx mr. ang to be with us today
with his excellent inspiring speeches

thx andrew with his excellent timing today
thx eugene with his excellent run.
thx rama for all the time taking
thx the team for all the cheering
sry girls the guys always cannot cheer for u all
cos we always having warmup :XX

clement relax man. u can do it de
cos you know u really put in the effort
JIAYOU!

-dashing.K

waiting.

2007-02-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

when u are prepared or ready
tell me
cos everytime i try
you always give me the cold shoulder
colder each time
it wasn't like this in the past
why is it like this now.
i am still i and you are still you
i tried alr. i really did.
i will just wait now.
no matter the answer
at least let me know.
but make sure u are ready, sure and prepared
cos i am always ready.
all the best where ever u go
it doens't matter where you are
cos you are at where the heart lies
i hope. i believe.
but do you.
maybe the doubts are in you.
but i hope it doesn't matter
cos my 100%
I hope
is enough.

-dashing.k

2007-02-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

i cannot believe i actually blog TWICE a day
AHHHH!

tmr got SAA road race at east coast
and i cannot run
but i have to be there
sigh

thx shaoming for subbing me
means alot

starting to feel fat weak and useless
cannot train
walk also leg pain
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
need to scream at east coast beach tmr
if not i will die of
sadness
stress
feeling lousy over myself
HENG I STILL HAVE JESUS
thank god!

-dashing.k

i really dunno.
at least tell me.

ups and ups, downs and downs

2007-02-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

Its been almost a year since I joined track and I am loving everyday of it. The tiredness, the feeling of pushing through the pain, the pain that you feel when you do your reps, the out of breath feeling, the sweating, the feeling of giving up all makes me enjoy running. I never would have know and would not haven gotten to know many people if not for track. Its been a great time training with the team, talking cock with them, having fun, drinking kopi and whatever we do. I am just amazed at how time flies. A minute ago we were still training with the seniors and the next, we are training up for nationals and we are handing track over to our juniors. I cannot bear to leave this team, even more run for the school. I wished I could do this all over again, or maybe do it even earlier, but what the hell.

I have not been very impressive in my results and I know that is very disappointing. I really hope I can make it when the time comes, hope that I can commit my heart to my ultimate aim, and during that juggle my other cca and schoolwork.

1 year has passed and I really feel that its too short to have been called a year and I really want time to stop and really let me enjoy this moment, the friendships, the feeling of wanting more results and improvements, before everything gets going again. I really want to capture this feeling and look back 1 day and tell myself that I had live my life and live it well.

Now its just down to serious training, training training training, to boost me up and be ready for nationals. Too much uncertainties, too much fun, too much pressure, too little time. Whatever it is, I will never regret knowing this team, it is us that rebuilt the team.

Rama, Kang seng, Andrew, Wenze, Jia Zheng, Clement, Wei Lun, Ming Jun, Wanling, Xue ling, Yuan ting, Ariana, Wanyi, Joanne. Thanks guys.

K.

2007-02-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

am i happy?
i really dunno
but i am sure i am happy for u.

congrats to Catholic high with a T score of 9.6 this year
wad an achievement!
my year was 11.1 and they went bonkers already
imagine 9.6 this year
band 1 le i guess
GOOD JOB catholic high

congrats to
nicholas 10pts
benjamin 10pts
joel 11 pts
shaoming 13pts (okie dunno if congrats anot but still CONGRATS)

ppl collecting o level result i more anxious than them
haha
my sister got 9pts
AND I HEARD
she got 8 a1s and 1c5 which is english
WHAT THE HECK!
so wasted
but nvm la
still good results
CONGRATS SIS!

-allthebest!-

2007-02-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

wishing all who are receiving their o level results tmr

especially you.

i'll be waiting.

-tu amor-

how to make you see
how to let know
how to say
how to say
how i love you so..

-it'scompleted-

2007-02-08T01:10:00.001+08:00

finished it at 1.10am 8/2/7
hope you will like it

2007-02-06T19:29:00.000+08:00

please give me a 10% decrease in timing.

hold your chest high,

for the mighty fight.

K.Leong met K.Seet

-nicesongsofitting-

2007-02-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

Li Sheng Jie - Zhui Jin

ni zui jin bu shuo hua
zen me le wei shen me
shi bu shi you shen me shi rang ni bu kuai le

ting shuo ni zui jin hen gu dan
you dian luan you dian huang
ke shi wo que bu neng gou zai ni de shen pang

xiang yao de wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu
wo neng gei de que you bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de
wo men bu shi he ye bu xiang ren shu
hao ji ci wo men bao zhe bi ci dou shi xiang yao ku

chang jie shi zhe yang de yi qie dou zhi shi kai shi
wo jue de shi suo you de yi qie zao yi jiu jie shu
bu xiang zai yue shu bu yao zai tong ku
xia yi ci hui you geng hao de qing lu

ai wo que bu neng gei ni wo quan bu
wo neng gei de que you bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de
wo men bu shi he ye bu xiang ren shu
hao ji ci wo men bao zhe bi ci dou shi xiang yao ku

chang jie shi zhe yang de yi qie dou zhi shi kai shi
wo jue de shi suo you de yi qie zao yi jiu jie shu
bu xiang zai yue shu bu yao zai tong ku
xia yi ci hui you geng hao de qing lu

-dashing.k

-sustainme-

2007-02-04T13:17:00.001+08:00

sustain me!

-itsoverfinally-

2007-02-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

somehow i know ur decision
but i so so so want u to tell me
I'M WRONG!

well ajc x country its over.
actually not even x country la
its a freaking only 3.8KM run. and its x country
SOMEMORE AT BISHAN PARK
but nvm
good run all!

well surprise surprise
zhi ping from puma hse also from basketball BEAT ALL TRACKERS
zomg.
but i got to admit hes good
well anyyway rama lost to him by 2 seconds
and we are BOTH injured
so wad the heck
sch x country only
also not nationals XD
well ppl will say its excuses 101
but who cares abt them
track team is a TEAM. we dun break simply cos someone runs faster than us.
cos
so many ppl run faster than me alr LOL.
managed to run 15.09 for 3.8km i tink its really a improved time.
thinking that the last time i ran 3.5km nyp route which is tougher than bishan
i ran like 15.45? so now is increased distance but shorter time? lol
well
PUMA MANAGED TO GET TEAM FIRST lol
we owned the other hses man
cos ronqin came in 3rd and i came in fourth with zhi ping first
so its like
1 3 4 and not forgetting to mention kent who got 8th!
yay

after the run went to reimin's hse there to eat zhi cha with class
i ate hong kong noodles
with khenglim majella wen yan and sandhya
and drank this super refreshing coconut which cost 2.50$ quite ex. but damm nice
wanted another one but $$ lol.

we went reimin's hse then we went to her basement zomg she got a drum set there ._.
then she brought down her enormous keyboard.
spent some time there singing and going crazy LOL.
then i left shortly like 1hr later with uncle yan jelly siti and huimin

well thats that.
all i have to do now is wait.
even if its forever
i hope i will get my answer

2007-02-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

time to pawn to get pwnt.

pawn us please ?!

relinquish the seet factor

-neverendingsong-

2007-01-30T20:56:00.000+08:00

many things done said happened.
i only wish for ur best everytime.
where i belong already and where you want to belong dun matter to me.
really.

all the given and received
all the melodies played and heard
all the words i said,heard,listened
all the time spent
all this journey,
i thought was more than everything

but when everything seemed to be end... soon
when the stars refused to shine
happy memories become fading memories
i cannot help waiting for it to come,
i had to say
what was deep inside me
and i said

many said many were too little too late
maybe i was
too much
too early
but time will not wait for me.
before you decide
let me play this last melody
something you wanted
something you missed as i waited
something unplayed

may it be a never ending melody
inside our hearts
no matter the decision

-dashing.k

dun laugh okie. my first try at poetry
well. life was good
thank god.
the track team is really becoming a TRACK team
every senior is really running well
during the SAA x country championships
first came in was a jc1 eugene
then came sia jiazheng a jc2
and 3rd came ramanathan a jc2
then 4th came wen ze a jc2
and came me.

well looking back. it was rama then me.
so now u can really see the improvement in the team.
confusion between 400m or long distance is really a dilema for me.
shld i specialise in one
or simply do well for both but cannot do the best of my capabilities
but coach tan said. i have no choice but to juggle with both.
this has many problems.
my quads are dead.
then i have to run long.d with injured quads.
though u dun really use ur quads during ur long.d
but the final sprint uses it
so on saturday
i actually made my injury worst
then
WITH ALL the jc1 and jc2 competing for the x country team
i have to buck up my long distance. WITH a injured quad.
so i rely heavily on my other muscle grps. so my calf died too
so in the end i cannot train for NOTHING.
sigh and friday is alr the sch's x country.
okie forget abt the jc1
so if i wan a medal
i have to get top5
and
looking at the SAA
1. Rama/jiazheng
2.rama/jiazheng
3.wenze
4.me
5.andrew

but andrew had sitch on the SAA competition. so
SO
we stilll got kent
clement
weilun
not mentioning some gay basketballer called zhi ping that everysay hes like godlike
so
maybe i shld just pull out of the competition and rest
i always tell my gaming friends
lose the battle win the war
can i let down this one.
i really dunno.
cos letting this one down issit succumbing to pressure?
or just simply letting down one's eco.
its a silver lining.

-thankingu-

2007-01-23T19:10:00.000+08:00

i will like to devote this post to GOD aka jesus!

thank god for
my friends
namely,
justin,jarvin,melvin
those who were there for me when i 'twisted' my knee
felt like wad the heck 1 day b4 monday training i had to fall down and dunno wad happen to my knee >_<
but with god's grace
my leg healed
AND I WAS SPRINTING .. STRIDING.. down the track man
NOT TO SAY
i broke my PB for 120m
with 14.67s
AND
when i ran 150m
18+ seconds
coached asked me. are u sure u started at the right place
HE was too shocked that me and rama did 18s

thank god that i now know of a new friend ^_^
who encourages me along
vice versa!
hope god will grace this friendship

and finally
thank god
for everyother thing
like bringing in such good jc1s to track this year
no matter if they are staying anot

-dashing.k
tmr another flop day but what the heck. did it b4 alr

-strengthtobelieve-

2007-01-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

our class seems to be going crazy.
firstly
we organise x-ctry
AND
maths superteam

and sadly, both requires me to go on the stupid place during assembly to act and sing smth.
sigh.
wednesday how much i dread it.
flop or fluke flop
either way also die
and xq say by doing that i will even be worse of by spoiling my image
then i said i dun care
she gave me that *face*
OF COS I CARE. like DUH. but -.-

WELL. good luck wednesday. just hope i dun sing out of tune can le.
and hope i wun be received with silence FROM THE SCH. zomg. imagine that

track is really BIG NOW.
we just had a sort of selection today
coach tan gave 60m trial for the jc1s
well i tot that they will run fast but in the end not exactly fast
fastest jc1 was only 8.01s. but well the track was wet due to the wet weather b4 training.
then we went to nyp for the route 1 (1.5km).
fastest jc1 5.15mins
that is like so fast i mean relatively cos if he never trained b4. thats fast.
but i doubt. if u run 5.15min u sure got run de. unless ur PRODIGY
but well. i dunno abt that maybe he is

so well. thats that,
but due to the performing jc1s. many of the jc2s are training really seriously now
harder than b4
must applaud them for running 2.4km even after today's training.
i didn't join them cos for the 1.5km i ran 5.20min.

tmr still got afternoon PE. G_G.
well. life continues
god guide me :)

godbless all
-dashing.K

-"Tu amor" ("Your Love") -

2007-01-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

Mi amor I’m not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here’s the place to start

Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You’re the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor
Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart
What I’ll feel for all time
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how
I need you

-dashing.K

2007-01-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

WELL the good news.t
he track is really really coming up nicely
the team is quite big now
for the first time. girl runners OUT NUMBER THE GUYS.
omglol
hHAHAHAHAH
we got 1 DSA and 2 appeal studentsthe 2 appeal students were from coach tan's sch tkss i tinkthey are good
and are really helpful too
well cca carnival 1 just went pass and we got a really good response of
49 sign ups!
i even had to run 100m x like 2 times for ppl who wanted to try out that day.
hahahahahathen
we had training after that i almost died
the TRACK spirit is really coming backe
ven mr tan went bonkers u noehe was walking up the steps
then he said
GOOD RUN GUYS AND GIRLS
cos we run 3x400m and 3x60m b4 that
we completed it. and the guys finished the set first.
THEN WHEN WE WERE GOING TO TAKE OFF OUR SPIKES AND GO GYM
mr tan shouted from the the finishing line
CHE RR FO RR THE G LS?
i was likE huh?
THEN he shouted againCHEER FOR THE GIRLS!
omg
i was stunned for like 3seconds
then i said.
GUYS COME ON CHEER THE GIRLS
then we started shouted from the grandstandthe girls was only at the opposite of the field and we cheered for them till they finished!
then mr tan came up from the stepsGOOD RUN GUYS AND GIRLS
omg!
like wad THE.
the good old serious mr tan actually talked LOUDLY and cheered for us
LOLwell
thats thatwe have training tmr. the jc1s will be joining us!

godbless all
AND GOOD RUN!

-dashing.K

2007-01-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

life goes on
people around me are struggling on
god told me to tell them to hold on
but
i wonder if i can even grasp my very self
sometimes i wonder if i shld put in effort for things i am concerned for
or
just leave it as that as when i do, usually nothing turns out right
or
the way i thought it would be
but
hope and light is always shining on me
asking me not to give up
but i really don't know.
maybe you can tell me
but i don't think you ever will
but maybe
its just me.

P.S: kent i know its a hard time for u. take care bro.
god bless all

-dashing.K

2007-01-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

BREAKTHROUGH

the track team is coming up. for some unknown reason, our training has finally starting to show results. i am really glad for team now. i tink mrs toh is too.

for starters

all of the guy runners have improved at least 0.20s for their 60m dash

0.20s seems a little lousy. but for 60m. thats is like almost 4-5m away u are from a person =)

well, rama is getting is speed now.

running at 7.66s his best time

i'm glad i improved too. to 7.44s

we 2 are very glad that we manage to run that timings.

and we kept consistent timings from 7.44-7.80s

when i got 7.44s, or coach mr tan even asked, are u sure its 60m

even he is started at our sudden improvement.

runners like kent,andrew,weilun,clement all improved at least 0.30s from their previous timings. the morale of the team is very high! woot!

for the girls, i have not gone to find out yet as i was already so tired after all the runs.

we had 2x120m too. i managed to break 15s and got 14.96s but thats just on par with my PB.

must get to at least 14.40s to match up to zhenghui our senior and even faster!

amazing b4 all these sprints we actually had a 3.2km long D run? i dunno maybe mid.D compared to 4.5km or 5km. and rama did it 3.2km in 15.07mins. quite decent. but not fast. never found out my timing, but unfortunately andrew had a stitch and had to fall out during the race NUUU!

so for the LONG/MID D run and we did so well in the sprints. i must REALLY. GOOD RUN GUYS!

we even had gym after all these. and everyone is so spirited. wow but i saw squash girls playing at the squash court at ard 7.30pm. they must be training hard too.

for competitions coming up. we have 27JAN at the Mac.Reservoir 5km run and 10 feb road race at East coast.

9wks to 2feb SCH's x-ctry run. feeling the HEAT man. and this year only the top5 will get medals!!!. wads more, its a sign up event. means if u are competiting u have to sign up. the rest of the sch will either run or walk a jog in bishan!

the terrain in bishun is ALL flat. so not much of a challenge compared to M.reservoir or turf city where the uphills are the killer spots. so the race will be rather fast i think. maybe rama will surprise us with a 17.00min run OR LOWER. maybe 16.00 ZOMG!

sch's fine so far after i tolerated 2hrs of GP lecture i tink the rest is nth compared to it ZZ.

they had to spilt the class up into band grps and teach the same thing with different lecturers.

well, take care all with holiday hw to rush :S god bless

unconditional concern

not from face value

but from deep inside my heart

misunderstood i do not know

but i can only cont-inue to do so.

-noteveninheaven- DASHING.k. no longer dashed :)

2007-01-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

FUCK YOU PS FUCK YOU AND YOUR FAMILY
U THINK YOU ARE SOME BIG FUCK FUCKING AROUND U HUNCHBACK FUCKER
MOTHER FUCKING CHEE BYE

FUCK YOU PS FUCK YOU

-firstdayinsch-

2007-01-03T21:01:00.000+08:00

well, its 07 alr.
06 gone.

first i will like to thank those friends who took the effort to buy me a bday present!
namely. MEL- > pencil case called PENCIL with many GREEN pens and pencil in it
JULIA-> who bought me a teddy bear SO CUTE but mel took it away and i got a cute dog instead but well still good :)
KhengLim-> WHO GOT ME A TURTLE. not the one i wanted the green little thingy cos was out of stocked :((( but the turtle was great. my younger sis have the bigger verison and it dun look so cute. MY LOOK SO INNOCENT :D.
LYIDA-> the CHOCOLATES were great. the packaging so NICE. i bu se de chi. definitely keep the packaging!!

and SORRY mel julia and all who gave me gifts and i never give.
cos i'm nt the kind of person that will give gifts unless u really really really mean smth to me.
like bday MEL i gave u OKIE. julia yours got who to give liao la :X

well cos xmas to me is CHRISTmas so to me the greatest gift for me to u. is JUST me. haha.
sry. i recently receeded from my mudslide away from god. thats wad the pastor call it

"for those who mudslided away. now raise ur hand and say u wan to receive god again"

i like my new church very much cos of pastor jeffery. he always ask for new believers or asking believers to rekindle their passion for god
and he will say this phrase
"all heads bow, no one looking no one talking.... and more i cannot remember"
but its really damm good.
cos i went to many churchs and all they care mostly is abt new believers.
but for pastor jeff. he always talk for the believers first. THEN for the new believers
i am touched by wad he said abt noteveninheaven. for those who wanna know. i can cry again for u and recite it for u anytime =)

well, sch starts. time table this year is not very good. earliest 1.45pm end
and on wednesday i got 4hrs break since start of sch. well revision chances i guess. =)
i thank god for all the blessings i had since i recovered from the mudslide =)
for my new CG. jus,jarvin,mark and many more i just knew in my CG.

well. tmr sch is a long long day :( many tutorials and afternoon PE. and i am training for sprints after that. hope PE wun be tough.
this year x-ctry will be in bishun park. hopefully i can achieve top3 like last year. but no bets. cos many runners in track is coming up especially andrew. guess i have to go for 3rd instead. but well there is ron qin and many other runners from other sports. u never noe. but FOR SURE. unless hes sick that day. RAMA is first. seriously. i cannot imagine him getting beaten by anyone in AJ UNLESS. some prodigy come from RJC or dunno where la.

godbless all =)

MR25 Ultramarathon

2006-12-31T12:02:00.000+08:00

On the final day of 2006, I chose to take part in MR25 Ultramarathon. So being so stupid, I had to wake up at 5:15am and get ready. Luckily, my dad was willing to send me there so I could make it on time. So this is my first time I am taking part in a MR25 organised activity. And because this run is so short, I could not jio any friends to run with me because it will be too easy for all of them.

Reached macritchie at an amazing time of 6:25am and I went to shit. I take that as a calling because everytime before I enter a run, I would need to shit, and now it has become an SOP. After that, went to register at the table outside the toilet. After about 10mins, many people started flooding the area, did not expect so many people to be interested. Nonetheless, it was fun being among the crowds where everyone was very enthusiastic about this "fun" run.

The race started at 7:00am sharp. Being the slow runner, I decided to let others to the front while I started later. At first, my mind was set to take the run slow pace, more of a enjoyable thing. However, running through the route for the first lap made me realised that the route has countless number of upslopes and the downslopes aint down. It was more of a vertical marathon at some part of the route than a running one.

Lap 1:

I started out at the back-pack and entered into a comfortable running pace. I tried to keep up with runners in front so as to make sure I do not get lost along the way. For the first 30mins, things were looking good. I feel good, the air is fresh and the route is quite bearable. First, we started out from the toilets and run towards the canal then we turn left and started a slight ascent to some fitness corner. We were trudging along the reservoir for about 4mins then we hit the trail. At first, I thought the trail was going to be like the 5k route macritchie route where its almost all flat. However, the slopes come and go. The first three slopes were ok but when the 4th slope come, IT WAS THE @*#^*&#$*&. Ok after the slope was a nice downslope, but due to the insane rain conditions, the trail was wet and slightly muddy and I had to ensure I do not slip and fall. Just when you thought the hills are over, another one comes devouring you. I had to suck it in and just continue running. Then I reached the SICC golf clubhouse(i think) where there is a steep downslope to the left followed by a mild descend on the road to the first water point(about 37mins). I did not take water as I made myself a promise not to take water too early. Following the 1st water point, I am sure you are getting the hang of it, another upslope and it was for about 200m UPUPUP to the PUB fenced up area. I ran at the side of the fence for about 20m and the trail part starts again. Now is the stairs part. For now, the stairs and path were negative gradient. It would be good to gain some lost time here but the continous motion of having to stop and go down the stairs just makes it difficult. This goes on for about 250m and its back onto the trail and MORE upslopes. You get the idea, its upslopes all the way. I cant remember what happens next but I know it consists of more upslopes and upslopes and upslopes. Its not an easy place to run. I guarantee you if you train that route every week, your leg muzzles will be OMGODLIKE. Slopes are not slopes anymore when you have ran this route, this is the route that defines and upslope. After all the insane upslopes, I can still picture them , you would still need to finish it off with the 5k route upslope to the road and then its normal all the way back to the toilet and that concludes 1 round of 10.5km-----> HIDDEN MEANING.

2nd lap:

I started my 2nd lap after taking 2 sips of 100plus at the main water point. Thinking that I would be able to accomplish more, I decided to take it a little slower. However, at 1:37, I started to feel abit of stitch and I was battling it out with the gods I know and myself. While at it, I came to this nature tree top trail where the start of it was another MOTHER GOD UPSLOPE and then it occured to me that I never ran pass there before. Seeing no one around me, I was shocked for a moment. Luckily, 2 runners from the thailand running club breeze by and I followed them back to the route(luckily only a few steps up the slope off course). By the end of the negative gradient downward sloping stairs, I gave up and started walking. You know how addictive this can be, once you stop running, its the end and it really is. After that , whenver I wanted to start running again, I could not and would always be tempted to stop. Not to mention that stopping does not make me feel better. Basically I walked through the 2nd half of my 2nd lap until I hit lornie road and then made it back to the starting point. The road down lornie road was more like a deal I made with myself that if I am able to run all the way there, I would call it day.

After reaching the start point, I had 1 banana, 1 raisin bread and 4 cups of 100plus. I sat down and the food and the feeling was just heavenly. Although I did not manage to complete the 52km that I set out to do, I know that I have become stronger and would definitely take part in it next year, hopefully able to complete the 52km.

By the way, I saw jeanette wang there, with her pink ironman cap. She is quite tall and looks very toned up and strong. After my 2nd lap, I made it a point to ensure I get to see her in real life before I leave. She does look very fit, you got to hand it to her, she is the yougest qualifier to take part in Ford World Championship Ironman in Kona, Hawaii. There is this thing about the people in this field, you will never know until you become one of them.

Kent

You know you tried, but you did not achieve what you want
you might feel that it is alright because you tried
truth is you know that you should have achieved more

time flies

2006-12-17T11:48:00.000+08:00

this is nice, extracted from acX. Enjoy

so quickly
hols are drawing to an end yet again
and so goes pre-season for us

how have you fared so far?
because it is not far before it all matters

know cross will come in the blink of a dagger
and before we know it
monster killing 3:18s will commence

at this time,
how well prepared are you?

be it the c, b or a div
we all face uphill tasks

the c div with your lack in depth and uncertainty
the b div with the absence of depth
and the a div against the victorian all stars

is it time?
it is time.

when you're chasing
be it in a race
or even as we're training
every little bit counts

how you rest
what you eat
every extra stride you endure
will all matter in the end

its not long before its the end

2006-12-10T21:01:00.000+08:00

She still remains the one.....

-lifegoesonandrunning-

2006-12-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

well. running 42.195km is really an experience.in fact besides the super pain knee joints i suffer due to the run. i am glad i ran it

sadly. i only slepty 1hr 30mins b4 the race time which was ard 2am till 3.45am. woke up then changed put no. tag then set of to yck stadium to catch the shuttlebus which i had to pay 5$ for a single trip to padang. -_-

felt shitty when i reached there thinking i wun be able to finish the whole damm run.
but met teo darren and even pak. teo brought a friend to run with us who is in vjc's x ctry.

the first 10km i ran with darren and pak tao. with teo and friend trailing behind. after eaching the first 100plus water station. i grabbed a cup drank and i whizzed off for the nxt 20km which is surprisingly easy for me. i was cutting down so many runners! i even clapped while running past them an action which i regretted when my inner thigh groin decided to give way and cramped >< had the limp and walk the last 12km's which was 2hrs as i ran 30km in 3hrs. so it was along and stupid 12km. i met gordon and many old friends on the way. some ajcians from odac were even helping out. from 35km-42km was really like a countdown which during the process u will accidentally count too fast. for eg. at 38km u wishing the nxt sign u see will be 40km but when u reach there u see 39km u feel really sian tiao! lol. well the last 600m was the most fun as i held on with the cramps and just sprinted. i chionged at the last 20m AND HAD A CALF CRAMP AT ARD 5M B4 THE FINISH LINE which i skidded through. lucky never fall down if not very embarrassing LOL. mte sheila who was waiting for AHEM. to finish.

all in all. good run all. i managed to run alongside kenneth seet, kent's idol who really like he said. have a aura ard him when he runs. excellent runner. for the trackers who ran the half. i tell U SOMETHING 21KM IS NO KICK AFTER U RAN 42KM SERIOUS. good run rama i heard u ran 1hr45mins for 21km which is quite fast :)

hope i can get over the shit that happened a day b4 my birthday soon. sigh.
thx wata and fade for celebrating my birthday with me at marina pizza hut. thx for the 90% treat HAHA. but sadly
THE WORST BIRTHDAY EVER CELEBRATED THIS YEAR. did i even celebrate LOL.

stand chart

2006-12-03T19:13:00.000+08:00

eh damn sian la. the stupid race official did not allow us to start on the 21km mat instead we had to get our timings from the 10k times. then on top of that, we were like 30mins behind the half marathon people.

At least i did ok. It was not bad la. I ran with jz,weilun and andrew all together, sticking with each other until the 12km mark when i suddenly realise i cannot see weilun and andrew. Then andrew chased after me and jz and said he will be accompanying weilun so me n jz took off. It was moderate pace la. we were aiming to finish not to pb and yet we did well all the way until the 19km mark. From that point onwards, it was teh shit. Man, i feel damn sad that i pulled jz down. SRY MAN JZ!

not bad run though.

the feeling of running into runners and playing snake during the race was DAMN FUN......MY ASS

-lifejustgotWORSTafteritgotbetter-

2006-12-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

i think this is going to be one of the saddest birthdays i am going to experience besides running 42km of standard chartered marathon.

i feel so cheated. i dunno y.
maybe its a misunderstanding.
but what the heck.
maybe i just trust ppl too easily.
or maybe its just me thinking too much

seriously,
i dunno when can i trust someone properly ever again.

team rev0. nice try against titans. i know its not our best. but to stay on decision lies with you guys. if u guys wanna continue. i will too.

-dashed.K
--> if its a test its not funny. cos if u were in MY shoes. u might have alr collapsed.
but i'm glad god is still there for me.
thx god :)

-lifejustgotbetter-

2006-11-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

had crazy training today.
we did 200m timed run.
didn't do as well as the last one. 24.60s--> last run
this run 25.41s.

rather demoralizing but thats becos during the 24.60s period i was doing alot of 120m sprints and now we dun do as much. so maybe if i do sprinting myself i can get back to that standard or hopefully improve!

after 200m time trial,
we had 10mins break.
then we had this CRAZY training
there were 8 cones and 1 cone that we are supposed to imagine as a marking on the track
the distance comprised of 280m altogether
we are supposed to sprint to the first cone then back. then to second and back.. so on and so forth. by the 6th cone everyone already dying lol. i was too. but we held on and we cheered each other on. i tink wad was the worst was the scorching sun! we were training at ard 10.30-12.00pm. then the sprinting was ard 11.30 we finished at 12pm.

we did 3 runs of 2 sets. by the end of the second set. we had to do gym which i couldn't do much
did the usual free weights on my hand. and then i left cos i had to meet shek huay to pass her princess goong dvd last 2 episodees which she said she missed! hahaha. but now she wun miss it anymore. we met for lunch together and we decided on j8's long john. it was quite a funnie scene b4 we met. cos we never met each other for 2 years. then while i was waiting. i saw this girl in white beside me. then i was like shet. could it be? then that girl took out her handphone and started messaging. then i was holding my phone. but i told myself. cannot be wad. shek huay was not that white when i knew her. then i looked forward. then i saw another girl in black and white shorts taking out her handphone. then my phone vibrated. then i knew it shld be her. haha. then i walked towards her. quite awkward initially. cos we never met each other for 2 years. but nevertheless. i tink we can chat quite well. i am actually quite paiseh cos she wear quite nice then i was in my sch sports white t-shirt and long pants. we went to j8 to eat long john. to be frank i tink that was the longest time i take to eat and yet. i didn't feel it was that long. every moment of it was great :) thx shek huay. we talked and ate for like 1hour at least i tink or more. then she had to meet her friend so that her friend can pass her smth. i tink i told her my whole life ALR LOL. opps was it boring? sry if it was hahaha. anyway we left and things started to go wrong compared to wad happened initially. there was these salvation army ppl that asked for any donation i donated 6$ then when we walked back to the mrt. we met this lady who asked for donation for this girl who have eye cancer and needs operation. shek huay and i donated 5$ each. we took bus 88 home. i dropped off at amk to go yck mrt. when i was at amk mrt. i got stalked again by donation ppl -.- i seriously ask myself. i got the generous look issit. tHEN THEY SAID i was cheated badly. cos i donated 10$++ and they only ask for 2$ so lame. but i still gave the 2$ and they gave me a pen. AHAHAHA.

i had a great time man. thx alot :) (: :) (:

track team is coming up alr. and its a great sign. i hope this continues.

-dashed.K

2006-11-27T16:37:00.000+08:00

i had a dream last night. a great one

and i asked myself y i didn't say goodbye the day u left.

regrets only feels my heart now as i await ur return.

sigh.

MAN MAN MAN

2006-11-26T12:07:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I must say this, I COMPLETED MY FIRST SOLO.hahahahaha after 1 failed attempt, I did it. It felt good, the cockpit suddenly felt so spacious and QUIET! hahahahaha, now all I need is my medical results before I can proceed to PPL. Please, I really need this. Yeah man. 24/11/06 Friday 0930hrs , this is the day I will remember I flew my first SOLO. YEAH!

Secondly, training is getting tough man. We had some imba workout on Friday. Run jog run jog run jog, IMBA.

-Kent

training

2006-11-14T18:52:00.000+08:00

whoa. last training was the sexxx man...no tightness.
Lets maintain it that way...
Oh yeah....

-K.seet

-everything-anything-nothing-

2006-11-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

so many things done, so many questions asked, so many of them answered
so long never blog alr. now must recollect my thoughts :)

well, lets talk about the gaming side since its the one that is still currently going on and the nxt 2 competition matches will begin tommorrow at 7pm and 10.30pm sharp against team AZEL and team exa.

against attitude.4u! we managed to get a 16-8 in de_dust2 but against team XTC we lost 16-9. It was a nice come back during our CT side, but our tactics worked, but the team didn't was quite tramutised after the match. cos it happened so fast. managed to win attitude.4u! but lose to xtc is really quite stupid cos attitude.4u! won xtc 16-2. which means that our win on attitude.4u! was a fluke? that i dunno. maybe playing style different. maybe team xtc playing style rivals ours. sigh.
we shall focus on the rest of the matches ahead so that i can do my boss who is currently taking a levels proud. ^^ study hard JJ

second thing i did for the past 2 weeks was playing what i love. music ^^
did a free one for my friend's wedding, i screwed up during the starting part cos the place so noisy like nobody appreciating till i played this new piece i just learned and decided to test it on this arena. was a jap drama serial song i managed to find from an old file with jap music scores, my brother played that time and he cannot continue. i picked it up and learnt it. it when i played that song. everyone was like shhhhhhh. quite amazing you know if u were there. then i played and played. and yes there was the usual wedding anthem, and it was seriously i dunno how my friend plan the wedding, it seemed that during the powerpoint presentation of how the 2 met, their families and stuff. I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE BAD GROUND MUSIC. what the heck. i had to play some smooth pieces right out of mind. luckily god blessed my mind to be calm and clear and i didn't play any wrong notes or any weird song that did not fit the picture on the screen. well. it was supposed to be free. but in the end the grandparents from both sides gave me a red packet. quite alot shall not disclose the amounts IF NOT DUNNO WHO AND WHO AND WHO WILL ASK FOR TREATS AGAIN :xxxx AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
did another 3 more performances earned quite abit but these 3 all put in bank. instructions from mum hahahahha.

now abt school. for track. its going well. the team average time for long distance is better than last years according to our coach tan. lao chen HAHAHAHAA. and kent please stop denying ur that talented guy coach said.

renactment of the scene.
coach tan : kent do u have any background? were u in any sports cca?
kent: erm no.
coach tan : well. some people are just talented .

LOL I STILL CANNOT HELP BUT LAUGH. but kent seriously. u need that self confidence.
we need you for nxt year. not kent seet. but kent LEONG. come on man.
trainings getting tougher but the team is getting closer and we are going to have A TRACK HEALTHY LUNCH B4 TRAINING ON MONDAY MUAHAHAHAHA!

well.thats dat.
all i can do is ask and ask. you hold the decision. i will not give up.

-dashed.K

-classouting-life-track-

2006-10-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

went sentosa with class today
Absentees : my,ch,nigel,gj,pear,wx,huimin,qiuling maybe i missed out 1 or 2 more :X

anyway, usual stuff we tried to play volleybay, but due to the lack of skills, apparently wasn't thats successful so we decided to play captain ball. damm funnie la. me and kheng lim captain then we conspire to get the 2 *ahem to be in the same team apparently my team. so me xx juju wen yan majella lizhen was one team. we managed to win
8-5 i yink then the game ended cos everyone wanted a break. we decided not to have lunch then come back and swim cos zw cannot seem to resist getting into the water, so me xx kl and zw went down and swam apparently, occasionally trying to get "mother" down into the water and then we disturbed the girls by spraying water at them HAHA >< then after that they decided to get in to the water too. most funnie was wen yen. he wore his polo white t shirt and pants and finally decided to take a dip after like 1hr since everyone was in the sea. zw apparently indulged in making sand chairs by the shore which of cos failed cos the waves washed the very foundations away. we swim for quite awhile then cos jelly never bring extra clothes so she was bored and not getting the water fun, so kl and mother decided to walk on the shore with her, i ran after them and we spotted FISHES in the far end of the silso beach. and kl managed to catch 2 of the baby fishes in a yakult bottle that was floating ard the shore, we brought the fish back to let the rest have a see, then me and xx followed jelly back to release the fishes back to the sea. then we just walked and sticked ard the beach till ard 2pm then we bathed and we left for vivo city where things started to go wrong, very wrong in a small extent.
at vivo city we were hungry and zw wanted to eat some good food but everyone was in budget mood. so we apparently decided on carl's and Jr but it cost like 10$ just for a burger so everyone didnot wan to go eat it and xx had BK coupons so everyoen was like okie lets go BK then zw was like WTH FACE ALL THE WAY THEN ON.worse still, the BK was not even opened so we walked for another 10-15 mins ard the big big vivo city finding 02-80 the BK but haven opened yet. and we ended up at long john silver. then the girls said we ta bao then go outside the and eat. xx me wen yan and kl did not wan to eat LJS, xx suggested subway we went opposite vivocity harbour front mall to eat subway. OMG SUBWAY ROCKS MAN. we all ate the cold cut trio which is 3 kinds of turkey ham into ur choice of bread, i chose honey oat. and had cucumber,tomatoes an d lettuce in the bread which is apparently 6INCH, kl bought the 1 foot long one instead cos he was extremely hungry. the BEST part was the cookie. OMGOSH, xx finished his bread when i still eating mine then he told me, now for the best part. AND YES THE BEST PART IS THE COOKIE. i eat the oat cookie is simply brillant, i cannot bear to finish it but its just too nice. nxt time sure go eat subway again!! thx xx for the excellent recommendation =]. so the girls ate LJS and we ate subway, the sad fact was we were thinking of buying zw smth to eat. but we decided not to cos there was nth here that was class enuff for him. sighx so we went back. then we found the girls. but zw left alr to look for another friend, apparently now he is not even online which is quite sad cos he is usualy 24/7 which means hes still out! sighx zw relax man.
told everyone in my class to sms him , to say sorry or thanking him. cos ultimately, it was ZW that organised all our class outings activities and even SL. so i tink he really did alot for us. we shld be thankful.

and celebrations for the class soon as a new pair is coming up i guess but there is so much complexity in the relationships of our classmates in our class esp the 2 whole day quarreeling one dunno for wad . at first such nice friends end up both become overly paranoid or dunno la. thinking too much. then when one take initiative the other duuno why the heart harden then even have spikes come out make the person who take initiative become even more pissed off. omgosh la then i am like IN between both of them. 1 is my brudder the other is my best friend so wad shld i do? dunno. try to patch them i guess. sometimes i realise it is super difficult to have a best fren cos how will u differentiate between best fren. fren or u like ur best friend? was listening to david tao pu tong peng you. last time i never really understood that song. now i experience myself wad is it. now i noe how it feels like that feeling. such a brillant song to describe one's feeling a this perioid. the lyrics so explains how i feel now. alot of people always have problems when they already CAN or know its CANNOT. but mine is like no where. its somewhere i dunno where and i dunno how to find out where cos everytime i try to. i get super negative response or something that detriments it so badly i just wanna give up. but i know i wun. cos i will never do it till i know the day u make it clear to me. whether good or bad so be it. lets face it. this feeling just sucks
its like u can be happy, depressed but i am no where.feeling empty like wanting to do smth but u noe the heart is strong but the hand is weak.

track is coming back to fulltime training alr. my must really thank my coach cos he see my potential and he is so keen in helping me realise it. and for the rest of the track and field mates like rama. dun get disheartened by some negative comments from ur mates, take it as a change, at least they tell u. and not say behind ur back man.
hope i can run faster after serious training, alr losing some of the fitness alr. kent COME ON!

-dashed.K
deng dai, wo sui shi sui di zai deng dai
zuo ni gan qing shang de yi lai
wo mei you ren he de yi wen, zhe shi ai
wo cai, ni zao jiu xiang yao shuo ming bai
wo jue de zi ji hao shi bai
cong tian tang diao luo dao shen yuan, duo wu nai
wo yuan yi gai bian (What can I do?)
chong xin zai lai yi bian (just give me chance)
wo wu fa zhi shi pu tong peng you
gan qing yi na me shen
jiao wo zen me neng fang shou
dan ni shuo, I only want to be your friend
zuo ge peng you
wo zai, ni xin zhong zhi shi just a friend
bu shi qing ren
wo gan ji ni dui wo zhe yang de tan bai
dan wo gei ni de ai zan shi shou, bu hui lai
so I ~ wo bu neng zhi shi be your friend
I just can't be your friend no no no

thats how i should do it

2006-10-22T21:47:00.000+08:00

20 in 27. not bad for a full 20. non stop.

-K.seet

tiring

2006-10-16T00:08:00.000+08:00

for the past few days, i have been swimming. Its definintely not easy but I must do it. Swim swim swim, fast is all i want.

FAST FAST FAST

-K.seet

~CDP-FOL~

2006-10-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

yea. cdp was a total waste of time, winning relationships? the intructor was TRYING to be interesting but. sometimes she crack a "joke" and then everyone was like -_-. you noe wad i mean . fell asleep ard 45mins into the 1.5hrs talk.

essence of leadership was even worst. had to play 2 games. 1 was get golf balls from this centre pail and then protect it. team with highest no. of golf balls left wins. and in the end grp G won with 18 golf balls against LEON'S grp which had 17. awwww.

then it become interesting. fol- MTV STYLE JAZZ

omg. stupid zhiwei. make me thing its some audition kind of fun dance like very easy.
we went in. then was like. alot of girls. why i say alot. cos
WE WERE THE ONLY 2 GUYS OMG WTH!!!!!!

we had to do this stretching exercise which was crazy. my muscles still aching after running days ago and playing bball, soccer, non stop for 3 days. while stretching i was dying . worst stretch ever, and u need to get into super uncomfortable positions. and being the only 2 guys makes it so much worse. cos the instructor (a guy) was so flexible, then most of the girls were flexible, and us guys, trying to be flexible. omg. it turned out to be rather gynas stuff.

it was called footwork or smth. then we had to do cross steps or wad he calls jazz walking,
had to go in grps of 5 but my class went in 6, was super duper embarrassing la. cos the moves where not easy to master, i got the legs right, but the hands omg. i tink no where. must have looked like a idoit. then we learned the choreography for a song. this part was damm fun, interesting also, many moves and we learn 4 bars of 8 ONLY. and the song is so fast, most of us cannot even catch up with the moves alr dun even need to say getting the stuff right or looking cool. it was fun overall learned smth i tink i will NEVER try again! chong hui was very interested in learning this. so i managed to help her get a name card from the instructor. our instructor was very good but sadly, he does only ad hoc. he recommended us a dance sch or smth cos chong hui wanted to know where she can learn more.

went to do track stuff and went with kent to sembawang sun plaza to get the tibits for the open hse. tmr is jc2 farewell, loy brad said i wun know how i feels like last year, looks like i will find out tmr..

-dashed.K

~lost~

2006-10-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

kent's birthday today.
didn't know wad to buy for him. decided to play this song he introduced me.
called him and played for him over the phone. he said "gao shou" LOL. thx kent, hes been a good buddy in track. if i manage to promote this year. got to thank him some day. anyway y not thank him now. THANK YOU KENT.

asdwas in my dad's car when we went hme after visiting my grandmother. then heard this phrase which makes alot of sense to me and brought me to deep deep thoughts.

"what you can give is not always what the other wants, no matter how much or how good u can give"

was thinking over this phrase and realised it makes alot of sense. u can do so much for someone or for a group of people. and more often then ever what u do is something they do not really want.then u ask urself why u do it in the first place.

i asked my brother once, whats the difference between loving someone without motives and loving someone with motives. he enlightened me. maybe non christians will not understand this but he said. To love someone without motives, is to love him/her becuase u want to show how much god really love u and u want to show gods love to her.
even for christians i think this phrase is difficult to understand but my brother put it to realism.

we were at J8 watching a movie with my family. i remember is a jack neo film. i not stupid 2. after we watched. my brother asked me. "hey wanna help clear the thrash and popcorn in this place". when he asked me. i was stunned. but i nevertheless helped. then the usual "cleaners" came in and saw us.Utterly shocked, they asked " are u people singaporeans?"

interesting isn't it? but my brother and I continued to clean up for them, in fact the cleaners were teenagers like me and they know we were truly helping. they hurried to bring the dustbin over and helped us. joke was my family thought we were kidnapped cos they were busy walking down with the crowd to exit the cinema. when they could not see us. they hurried to call us. but we opened the door and saw them. haha.

well but u cannot measure love just on how much you do for someone cos there is a limit. there are some "good" things that some people find it their usual pie everyday. for eg, offering a seat for a old lady. many may find that person who gave up that seat helpful. but its hard to differentiate if he/she gave up the seat without any intentions. intentions i mean, getting into people's good books as it is often seeing group of teenagers teasing their friends when they give up their seat? so issit for popularity? to get in the good books of people? its hard to decide isn't it. maybe some people who read this may just find that i am thinking too much but well maybe i am .

xq said love and like is different. i guess i really dunnoe cos never had a gf b4. well she had a bf haha. guess being single has its advantage! more time!
anyway for those worrying abt promos. go play first la. if not no chance le =)
back to running man. hopefully can run for sch nxt year. train hard tnf.
good job on the store today. its fantastic now =]

-dashed.k

running our life?

2006-10-05T01:20:00.000+08:00

its 1.15am and i was thinking abt this question

running our life? running after our life? running for our lifes?

sigh. promos has mad me run FOR my life LOL. in all aspects

1 more day till friday and it will be over for now.

and really over after 17 october

and truly over IF

2 scenarios

1) i promote so trulyover after As
2)i dun promote THEN ITS TRULY OVER FOR ME RAH!

sighx. friday will be the determining factor man.
geo please not be hard
not too hard can alr. i just wanna pass it LOL.
to all taking geo on friday. good luck =)

-dashed.K

coping with failures

2006-10-04T12:46:00.000+08:00

This exam period has grant me many chances to see what exam stress can do to people. Many people, almost all, would put their other goals on hold and focus on what truly matters, the promo exams. Yes, i know all of us would surely want to do well and thats why we are all studying so hard, thats understood. However, I personally do feel apathetic about people who come walking out of the exam hall making alot of noise. Ok some noise would still be acceptable but excessive is definitely uncalled for.

I mean I have learn quite a few things the hard way and all these seemingly harsh words do make sense. You reap what you sow, don't cry over spilled beans but cry over the chance that you could have made it better. Sigh, with maths out of the way, Chemistry is the only one left to be taken down. All the best guys, will see ya in the sunshine.

K.seet

make or break

2006-09-30T17:58:00.000+08:00

its here. haha. 2 more days and 7 days till its freaking over.

bro's birthday on saturday so is loy's and on saturday also jelly's birthday. wth.

like no pt celebrating if after promos i feel like shet.

I HOPE NOT

back to mugging

to mel : we wun be pigs i hope haha

-dashed.k

its a joke

2006-09-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

It has come to my attention that there are a certain number of people that live the first two decades of their life like a dream. Its more like "going" with the crowd and not knowing what they have been doing all these while. However, some of them obviously are ignorant to what the world beyond their horizon actually is. Its really a pain in the ass when I see the people that are trying to put up an act wherever they go. Do you really need to laugh and comment about every single thing that you see? Its not that we do not have eyes and ears to see and we do not need a narrator to narrate every single thing thats happening.

I guess it must be the different backgrounds that we call came from that makes us so different in our thinking and behaviour. Maybe thats why, we are all but just friends, or should I say acquaintances. One more thing, people acting cute is another nuisance to the mind. Its more prevalent in people from the "Rukongai" area. I wonder why.

-K.seet

I DID IT

2006-09-26T17:13:00.000+08:00

YEAH....I DID IT!!!!!

Today is the day we will all remember, K.seet has advanced on to PHASE 2. YAPADOOOOOO!

26/9/06

-K.seet

ETA 7days

2006-09-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

well its only 7 days away.

mum pasted a note on my table telling me no computer games 1wk b4 and during exams.i saw it i was like. duh. i know what to do. but well dun care. it seems this 7days is going to decide if i see everyone nxt year again.haha. i hope so. well. happy mugging ppl. this doomsday or celebration after nxt wk. i hope its the later. to all my friends. good luck. i will pray for each and everyone of u on sunday ^_^. STUDY NOW IF NOT U REGRET AND IF U THINK ITS TOO LATE ITS NOT.

-dashed.K