well.
its be
a
lets see.
from 12am to 10.40pm
thats 22hours
22hours of undescribeable ________.
did i spell it correctly? lol
DUNCARE!
im in a totally what they call it. NOWHERE
nothing. NOTHING can define what i feel now
NOTHING.
just can't believe, dictionary got over dunno how many thousand words
and none of them can actually fit.
not even a PHRASE
anyway today is the last episode for 2 shows
SILENCE aka Shen Qin Mi Ma
and the ch8 9pm show
both had sad endings.
omg so sad. hahahahahahaha
anyways.
mel said that what happened recently really damm drama.
omg.
maybe i deserved it. LOL
cos i was hoping it to be so
but i didn't know it will be so hard, so painful.
I had a friend who's a girl
i always wondered why even though the guy broke up with him
she still remain faithful
she told me that i will never understand
i think im starting to understand now.
the feeling of
not wanting to hurt someone
but ur hurt by that same person
the feeling of
wanting to care,
but caring too much will mean hurt
the feeling of
showing that u get hurt
will only hurt someone
the feeling of
wanting to do so much,
but the thing to do is nothing
the feeling of
knowing this is so important
but because its so important,
you cannot do anything about it
the feeling of
knowing he/she cares,
but he/she got her own circumstances to be bothered with
the feeling of
not wanting it to affect her
and rather suffering the pain by yourself
the feeling of
helplessness,disappointment....
the list goes on
but the fact the these feelings exist
its becos of 1 feeling
becos i care.
thats enough for me to experience and endure these feelings
for their existence only show how important this is to me.
i learnt a super cool analogy today
Each of us is an Angel with ONE wing.
The only way we can fly is to hold each other.
So if one has a trouble flying
just find the one who is willingly to share with you
i found mine.